Any advice is appreciated. I wisited doctor and I think this was right thing to do. For instance (sorry for details) several years ago I found a lump on my testicle (sorry again) and got immediately scared that it is testicl cancer. I am deeply ashamed of what Ive done (it happened 3 or 4 years ago), and I recognise that, although I was a clueless teenager, I did something extremely stupid. I have a huge fear my children will be taken away. A subreddit dedicated to discussion, articles, and support regarding OCD. Anyway, whether or not I can be punished, I can't seem to get rid of the feeling that I should be punished for possibly having bad thoughts as a 9 year old child. Just make sure when it happens to not check for reassurance like going back to the spot or inspecting your car because for me That's a shame, Richard. I worked on shuting this thoghts for days and just one analitical article returned all this fear and obsession. Common obsessions are: A strong fixation with dirt or germs Repeated doubts (for example, about having turned off the stove) A need to have things in a very specific By I tried and failed multiple times and eventually got a really good streak going. I feel like I don`t know. Lol, thanks OCD. So, its okay not to panic when you get these thoughts. Still, yup, always afraid that I will somehow be breaking some obscure law or be accidentally on some list and just get disappeared. By Like what if I went through a phase of this. Im about to lose my job, my girlfriend and my dog because of this and I need help. If the problem lasts for a while or if it becomes a significant thing in your every day life, I would also reccomend seeing a therapist, even if it just helps you to have no more doubts. It helps. It really helps. My doc says that my OCD is a symptom of more general shizotypical disorder and so meds are more important than anything These can be unpleasant thoughts, excessive guilt, doubts, and crushing anxiety. . You can't go to jail unless you commit a crime punishable with jail time. I am down 24/7 because my brain keeps telling me that nothing matters, since I am eventually going to prison and my future will be ruined. Bizarre thoughts are common in OCD. Hopefully this helps you feel a little less alone. These thoughts may be because of OCD, which is short for obsessive-compulsive disorder. I spent 24 hrs a day fearing prison and hell because it was reported that the women could possibly be human trafficking victims. This particular therapy option seems to be effective for 70% of the cases of OCD and complex PTSD. Most people can put their past mistakes behind them and avoid incessantly worrying. First post on this forum. The next step is attempting to stop taking these thoughts personally. However, we are not able to help with suicide on an internet forum. It was one of the worst experiences of my life for this reason. I`ve read on the Internet that Kremlinis going to apply much more pressure on the opposition this year and I got scared much more. You can manage it more with a better response system. We`ve been discussing methods in political science and I mentioned that rational choice paradigm can explain terrorism and portrays terrirists as rational actors. Please contact the moderators of this subreddit if you have any questions or concerns. How your mind keeps going over it, churning. If you have ever experienced these, you should know that youre not alone. Hello ivieo. But you have to take a leap of faith and stop looking for any kind of reassurance for a while to get there. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Most people have this fear despite committing no crimes. In truth your fear is equally unjustified as someone who washes their hands 20 times instead of once. She says that my problems and emotional traumas run much deeper, that CBT can help. Learning to live with uncertainty about the future and the past is so freaking difficult though. The persons subjective lack of agency regarding their symptoms worsens as theyve been doing those symptoms for a longer and longer time, because they have so many experiences of feeling as though they dont have a choice about doing them. OCD obsessions are repeated, persistent and unwanted thoughts, urges or images that are intrusive and cause distress or anxiety. There are many categories of OCD. These obsessions typically intrude when you're trying to think of or do other things. For example, both conditions are characterized by intense irrational fear. As you get better at facing your anxiety and not giving in to compulsions you can reintroduce these activities to your life. Is there a concrete way to accept this and live in peace regardless? Whenever you feel OCD really compelling you to do something (checking, counting, etc.) Dude, I have this too! At present, Im feeling very anxious because I booked a holiday for dates that have three number nines. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. Its often so because they feel embarrassed about their condition. It is unlikely that these fears will ever come true. So much so that they cant put it past them and start falling into the loop of intrusive thoughts.. Accepting these thoughts will help you understand your fears better as well. I read books, I play games, but fear thought are "floating around". Only having intrusive thoughts isnt a marker of an accurate diagnosis. Ruminating is my compulsion. Better to not want to kill or maim, but sometimes not acting on thoughts is the best we can shoot for. They will no longer seem threatening and lose meaning once you acknowledge them. She says that my problems and emotional traumas run much deeper, that CBT can help. That's a tough go, sorry that's happening to you. A new sense of worth. I would justify it by saying that my back hurt and I didnt want to go to an actual place because its easier and quicker just to go to one of these places. Not understanding why theyre doing what theyre doing only adds to the feeling of not having control. 2019 - 2022 wholesomealive.com. It was awful. WebPeople with OCD are afraid of making a mistake that they cant take back, one that would lead them to experience their most feared emotional state forever. Finding a lump on your testicle definitely requires a visit to the doctor to get it checked out. I immediately assume that I've done something wrong and that they're going to haul me off to jail or kill me. Hi I also struggled with prison OCD, feel free to PM me. Our mission is to provide easy to read and in-depth medical information. The wonderful u/froidinslip has written an invaluable post to help you navigate this time: https://www.reddit.com/r/OCD/comments/q4zeo1/please_read_this_before_posting_about_feeling/ You are not alone, and you have options. Instead go to the things you fear. I'd just go ahead and keep your travel plans how they are. So you're not completely paranoid- like many Finding a lump on your testicle definitely requires a visit to the doctor to get it checked out. But there are many causes of testicular lumps, so Fear of my kids being taken away is a big one for me too. Only time helps honestly. You can't allow yourself to change your actions or plans based on numbers. She means that I am not ready to public speaking atthe moment and that I should abstain from it since the act of public speaking leads to me later re-watching videos, micro-analyzing my words (seeking criminal meaning in them) and paying momey to lawyers. I am 20 years old, and have been suffering from OCD for almost 8 years now. I used to also think the same about suicide - in so much as I'll end up taking my own life. I often worry I've run someone over in my car, I sometimes have to make myself not go back and check. Finally I read the news that Robert Kraft was in trouble for doing what I did and I thought that I was going to go to jail. I don`t get how to draw the line between realistic fears and unrealistic. I have had OCD for a very long time, but recently it's just been getting out of control. But what it does take is effort every single day "Please go find matching socks so people don't think we're neglecting you.". I try to avoid weapons or dangerous objects that I could harm myself with. But you can`t go to secret serrvices and ask them: "guys, are you OK with my words or are you going to prosecute me?". So, you may also wonder, does OCD cause phobias?. I am a bot, and this action was performed automatically. The meds were working but making me feel so fatigued I wasnt able to function. If you are looking for a place to start let me give them to you. I'd just go ahead and keep your This has also evolved into my kids being taken away too. This will make you very anxious at first, but the more you can resist doing compulsions the faster the anxiety will go. (For example deleting your youtube post was a compulsion.) I'm not asking for a diagnosis but could this potentially be a form of OCD? Is there a concrete way to accept this and live in peace regardless? Fear of rejection and judgement from society We strongly believe that other people having a negative opinion of us is the worst feeling ever. I get severe anxiety whenever I'm around the police. Its more natural to run away from those that seem scary. That's why I am interested in hearing about the experiences of any individual who think they may suffer from a fear of going to the bathroom. I do the same thing and thats why it freaks me out! Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and the subreddit. It can be different for your case. however in Russia it is not. But I've never acted on then, don't intend to, and decided to worry about killing people when I actually do it. No scheduling or phone calls. Sometimes, people confuse the fear of going to jail with OCD with a phobia. I imagine how I will do things in jail and then I overthink like wait does that mean its happening?? Maybe also communicate with your psychiatrist the extent of the effects of the meds on you (w/ your job, relationship, general happiness, etc.) I don`t get why medication is not working properly, why I can`t get rid of this "swarm of fear thoughts", The thing is that my psychiatrist believes that OCD is only part of the story and that in general I have a shizotipical disorder. It can sometimes take years of silent suffering for several people before seeking professional help. She says that my current emotional condition and public speaking won`t just how to say it.. work out? My hands get clammy, my heart races, etc. Agreed with glowmousemoon. Usually I wrote only scientfic papers - youtube format was new for me and I was ready for it. I feel like I just spend so much time disregarding the things that life offers me because of my obsession! The goal of this article is to provide a simple framework for beginning to see the coherency in these symptoms. It is incredible how our thoughts can seem pointless once we voice them aloud. There have been cases where the OCD may develop into a phobia and vice versa. Right now, Im stuck on the fear of going to jail because of my real event OCD. You say you are taking drugs and have been offered more drug treatment in hospital, but drugs alone will not cure OCD. But yet, my mind will then go in to "What If" mode (i.e. We dont want to give It doesnt have to mean that something has gone wrong in your nervous system. It's easy! I started taking Luvox. That means when those thoughts come up, instead of ruminating, just say, You know, I cant be certain about what will happen. Ground yourself in reality. The support of others is critical at this time. * An exposure may also provide an opportunity to disconfirm an expected negative outcome of a certain behavior, but RF-ERP does not see this as the primary way that exposure works. I used to work very intense construction labor jobs with shitty pay carrying shingles, bricks, basically anything heavy. I am not ready to discuss political situation in Russia. I wrote to my doc that Zeldox isn`t working at all and that I need something more powerful to shut my obsessive thoughts down. The attempt to reassure yourself by hiring lawyers didn't erase your unrealistic fear, deleting youtube content didn't give you relief, and when there is no knock at the door in the morning that won't bring relief either. (For example deleting your youtube post was a To the point where I have a speech rehearsed to tell police if Im ever interviewed, to explain why I look nervous/guilty. I know it's a compulsion, and a part of me knows that I will always be doubtful, but I feel as if I have a moral obligation to do so somehow. Some of the symptoms of OCD and phobia may overlap. It may have been why you have decided to click on this article. While most people would describe their worst fear in terms of a concrete event (e.g., losing a loved one, going to jail, losing all their money, getting cancer, going to hell, etc. I spent 2 weeks drinking a bottle of vodka a day just to get a couple hrs of sleep until my mom checked me into the hospital. I realized that some obsessions may be to hard to shake of because you have already done a lot of compulsions that they require or because they are for some reason particulary stressful especially for me. Press J to jump to the feed. Something that I can't get out of my head is the fear that I might go to jail because of doing something illegal by accident. 2 Snowbear Your words are kind and warm Though I don`t get how to draw the line between realistic fears and unrealistic. For instance (sorry for de Those who struggle with Richard Rahl Causes, Symptoms and Treatment of Derealization Disorder, Hyper Conscious Awareness: How to Be More Aware of Your Surroundings. Its definitely not healthy :( . After all, in cases with OCD, you often worry about scenarios that havent taken place and are not most likely to ever. (My attempt at 'hello' in Russian!). (I know its wrong and understand the severity) I had to go to court and everything. Good luck, and ask if you have specific questions. OCD symptoms are thus strategies that the person with OCD uses to protect themselves from their Core Fear, whatever that might be. If you afraid of cancer, you can visit doctor and search for cancer. I also feel a lot of guilt over things I may have done. Finally I read the news that Robert Kraft was in trouble for doing what I did and I thought that I was going to go to jail. Rumination-Focused ERP (RF-ERP) helps restore a persons sense of agency by helping them to understand why they engage in their symptoms and by systematically helping them to exercise control over those symptoms. Healthy 23 year old men who are abstaining from PMO in my experience make awful decisions. If you fear that you may have OCD, its best to visit your primary caregiver and seek treatment. Apart from getting help from lawyers and deleting posts, what else do you do to relieve the anxiety? If someone decides to do something wrong that is illegal, abandon them. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Forum. Absolutely. This means that I generally tend to have bizzare thoughts, Privet Richard. Going to jail is my number one fear, and I always imagine my life if I went to prison, like surviving in the prison, trying to find a job when released, shame from family and friends. Ive never met anyone with that fear besides myself, thank you for telling this helps a lot. Moreover, it is not always possible to prove that doing X wont lead to Y. I understand sometimes people really do get jailed in Russia for their political views, but ask someone with fears of bacteria and they'll say the likelihood of illness is real, people with responsibility fears will say they 'should' feel responsible and so on. Depression+Anxiety+Sore back+NoFap brain is not a good combination. Copyright OCD-UK 2004-2022 Especially the 1st few days. Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and the subreddit. In OCD the thing we fear always seems very real and very likely to happen unless we do the compulsions to stop it. Ideally this should be done with help from a therapist (or understanding what you're doing by reading about it yourself). If you want to recover there is no easy steps. OCD is crippling if you leave it without treatment. I didnt really think it was that big of a deal at the time, but it really breaks me now. Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and the subreddit. Yes, irrational fear is a significant symptom of OCD. Then you know what you're trying to stop. Obsessions are unfounded thoughts, fears, or worries. The thing is, that you can recover from OCD and medicine is not a necessity to do so. Here is the thing bro, you're deep in it. I used to think I was going to jail for using a fake name on tumblr.I didnt know it was OCD at the time so I let myself ruminate like crazy. Im working on realising this and letting go, accepting im not in control and it may happen it may not, but I dont need to focus on it now. 02 While he still struggles at times, he's developed habits that allow him to cope with his OCD on a daily basis, such as meditation, staying active and using humor to address his thoughts. And somehow the problems with criminal code fear me much more than rabies, HIV or even cancer. Is It Normal to Constantly Fear Going to Jail? Do you ask yourself a lot of what ifs? My obsessions revolve are harm, so fear of doing something bad or illegal resonates with me. Posts: 10. Put another way, they lose their sense of agency. WebFear of doing something illegal and going to jail Something that I can't get out of my head is the fear that I might go to jail because of doing something illegal by accident. Checking? But there are many causes of testicular lumps, so although its natural to fear cancer until the doctor has assessed it it's unrealistic to assume the lump has to be cancer or to continue to worry once it's been checked out. I've had all sorts of themes, so I unfortunately have been through quite a lot. Do you cave in and change what youre doing or do you go ahead and do it anyway? If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide, please do not hesitate to talk to someone. Arriving at conclusions without medical expertise could do you more harm than good. Like what if I don't fill in this paperwork correctly and have to go to jail or get in a lot of trouble. not only should you not do your compulsion but actively do the opposite. Visit our Anxiety Center to learn more about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), I posted a similar thread over on the anxiety board. I dont cope with these well so Im open to recommendations. However, it could also be because I don't want to upset the people around me, especially family and loved ones. Now, youll want to pay close attention to these thoughts. However police may think otherwise, if my student informs police, You need to be a member in order to leave a comment. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. ), what they really fear the most is the emotional state they associate with that event, and their actual worst fear would be experiencing that emotional state forever. I still sometimes think I'll end up in prison for some reason. Because your thoughts are fear-based, its important not to avoid them. Even if this possibility were real, how should I behave? It's a very scary thing :/. A program offers compassion, empathy and they are being treated as a human being. I need some replies. I don`t get why medication is not working properly, why I can`t get rid of this "swarm of fear thoughts" The thing is that my Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and the subreddit. Sometimes this fear becomes so intense that I start self-harming (cutting hand with a knife) or even weight the option of suicide. Its a real fear, but this event in particular happened 4 years ago, and although everyone says that nothing is going to happen, it is still bothering me. Secondly, the compulsions can be dangerous. I've been down that rabbit hole and it only gets worse and worse with more and more numbers becoming "bad" and harder to avoid. Unfortunately I can`t afford it. Copyright OCD-UK 2004-2022 CBT can teach you to see your obsessions in a new light and overcome your compulsions. My husband cracks up (we laugh about it together. Your therapist may be right that for now you should avoid public speaking. Can anyone relate? Is the fear of going to jail the worst possible outcome to this event? Join the conversation! Real Event- Fear of Jail Real Event- Fear of Jail By ivleo February 17, 2022 in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Followers 1 ivleo Bulletin Board User 3 Medication (neuroleptics) is not working on me at all - I tried lots of different neureleptics. Logically I can't think of any reason it would ever happen, but that fear is constant. People with OCD often cognitively distort their reality. Left the hospital after 5 days and starting feeling okay again. I'm thinking it might be repressed anger and frustration because I have a difficult time expressing and managing my emotions due to my upbringing. They have a strong sense of urgency that they must attend to or else these compulsive thoughts continue to plague their minds. At first your anxiety will probably increase because you're not doing any compulsions to relieve it, but remind yourself that although the way you feel is real, the thing making you feel that way is just unrealistic thoughts. The Extra thing only happened twice out of all of these visits. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. Re: Pure-O: Scared of PrisonPlease help. Of what exactly are you afraid? WebHow rational is this fear/am I going to jail. Hey, Im not OP but I obsess a lot if I had a breakdown relating to my theme and blurted out things I didnt do on the internet or forums because I may have lost control of myself and forgot. Press J to jump to the feed. When I used to do these searches, I told myself it was to prove that sort of thing doesn't really happen but I end up convincing myself I'd be the first. 1. Not making excuses and I know Im a piece of shit for this it just added to my terrible Mindset at the time. Otherwise it'd drive me to the brink. If you afraid of cancer, you can visit doctor and search for cancer. Dealt with it how I deal with all my other obsessions. All rights reserved. WebYes, I suffer from "hit and run" ocd everytime i drive. do you have any personal experience with the cases when OCD is a symptom? I've mostly gotten over it now just by continuously reminding myself I'm doing nothing wrong. I felt terrible about it and the guilt was killing me. Only by stepping in and not stepping back will you begin to see progress. I am 20 years old, and have been suffering from OCD for almost 8 years now. Im so predisposed to thinking Ive done something wrong, even when I havent, that I can totally imagine myself giving some nonsensical incoherent false confession. One of the best is https://www.ocduk.org/shop/break-free-from-ocd/. Ugh yes thank you. I try to tell myself the fear spiral is NOT the obsession or the problem, but rather the OCD desperate for absolute certainty in an uncertain world. I said nothig against Kremlin, but I can`t stop microanalyzing my words. These fears could be about anything. Like Ill catch myself defending myself in my head against people that arent even real lol. It could also result from breaking the law knowingly or unknowingly and resulting in jail time. I have never related to a comment more. I've also stopped myself from googling every single thing I'm worried about and to get information about who has been arrested for what. Your mindset has to change to a recovery mindset if you want to get better. Yes you are definitely not alone. Furthermore, I'm reminded of a technique from Katie d'Ath's videos on YT, talking about an effective strategy to counter OCD. Ive asked my best friend and my dad about it, and they said that nothing will happen, but I am still ruminating. And though I position myself as "pro-Kremlin expert" (though I try to remain as much scientist as possible), I still fear this scenario much. Fear of contamination (germs, viruses) 2. I do my best to still make these plans to not strengthen these thoughts. I have no doubt CBT would help you, it's even used to help schizoid disorders quite commonly now. You know it's an OCD (unrealistic) fear when checking it out and getting reassurance still leaves you feeling doubtful. I was conducting I private lesson via Whatsapp to one girl. Probably she has a point. First of all, I have real event ocd, so I get it. Yes is the short answer. No amount of reassurance will ever satisfy an unrealistic fear. Maybe you can teach her about treating OCD! These thoughts do not define you as a person, and the more you let that register, the easier it will get. I realize that this is irrational. You matter and deserve help. Prison reentry programs provide a sense of belonging, structure and support for people coming out of prison. I got a ticket for throwing a cigaretter out of my window when I was 19. The intense intrusive thoughts of OCD can be crippling and interfere with your day-to-day work. In many forums, people seek help and ask if what they feel is normal. There have been several times in the last few months where friends would suggest we do something soon and I think, "Well I'll be in prison by then so what does it matter?" Sign up for a new account in our community. That's asking for reassurance though, which will only help you in the short term and not the long term. In my country, I think that there is no limitations period for criminal offences, which is partly why I'm so scared. Is the event real or imagined? I also have always been afraid of law enforcement unnecessary. Sign up for a new account in our community. By talks I mean the process of psychitherapy. All right reserved. First step is to identify your compulsions and label them as compulsions. They may begin with hints of truth, which is why they can be so alluring and grab attention fast. Someone who is struggling with OCD, fear of blindness has constant fears an illness will lead to them becoming blind or visually impaired. I had a phase where I had an intense fear of becoming a sociopath and ending up in jail. Until next time, take care and be well. Not even just about law enforcement, if something ever happens where I feel someone might ask me about my side of the story I would have a checklist in my head of things to go over when speaking to them. Third, the basic reality is that you (we!) Ever since, any time I see a cop or am reminded of law enforcement. Study the law, learn about scams and stuff so you will never ever fall under a victim or get in trouble because of ignorance of the law. For real though, that's solid advice from your therapist. It is around constantly. So, the tiniest action thats typically insignificant may seem overly shameful and persist in an OCD brain. Im rambling. It's easy! Xanox and sort of. Wholesomealive is an online healthcare media publishing website. This is where it all started. I often have intrusive thoughts about harming/killing myself, so much so that I have attempted it this past summer. Long story might be hard to follow I dont know where to start, stay with me please. I catch myself assuming its gonna happen and that scares me even more. Wouldn't want the Dr. to take them, now would I? My sister is a Poli sci grad student and we live together. Press J to jump to the feed. Those are the signs that OCD is in play. Fear of acting out may be most prevalent in the following obsessions: Aggression - thoughts of harming others or of harming oneself Sexuality - thoughts of changing orientation or of engaging in unwanted sexual behaviors Religion - thoughts of violating religious rules Morality - thoughts of engaging in immoral behavior This Is Where Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts, https://www.reddit.com/r/OCD/comments/q4zeo1/please_read_this_before_posting_about_feeling/. So, make sure to stick around till the end. Once you've identified your compulsions you need to practise NOT doing them when the scary thoughts come to you. But I actually imagine spending time in prison and how I'll manage my OCD (Contamination) in prison. I tried to get better jobs but either realized I was to dumb or didnt have the qualifications. Having control the guilt was killing me of faith and stop looking for any kind of reassurance for new. 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